I feel like a terrible person…
But Febuary 5th marks two years since I lost my first child.
People still say it isn’t my fault, but sometimes I feel like I messed up some how though I don’t know how…
I still think of you, cry for you, wonder what you would have looked like, what color hair you might have, the feeling of your skin, how tall you would have been, your favorite belongings, what shows you loved, your favorite food, and so on…..
This is to the mommys….
Who lost their babies.
I know how it is to see other pregnant women and just feel so overwhelmed with sadness and sometimes jealousy. It’s like a kick in the face every day. Each and everyone of you who have gone through this, I have the up-most respect for you. It’s one of the roughest things you can go through physically and emotionally. You are all incredible women for getting through this and having the strength to carry on from day to day. It doesn’t matter how you were when it happened. It is so hard. But know this..
You all are in my heart. Even if I don’t know you and I hope one day you can have a beautiful baby boy or girl to love just like you deserve! None of you are alone in this! Always remember that.